I’m Happy Until I Remember.

The smile leaves my face

From the quiet breakfast table,

Bacon in the light of dawn.

With on my face a soft ray 

I still feel your lips

And phantom limbs,

The weight of a body long overdue.

Though I lost myself

You stick around;

Your breath is at my shoulder,

Body’s smell in my shirt.

After a sleepless night

You are more inescapable.

I raise the knife to cut

One last piece

So myself I may excuse.

I look into the dark

Below the light

Without seeing, knowing what’s there,

It’s moving so fast that

I don’t understand at all.

The life I leave behind

Can not guard my steps ahead.

Fingers on buttons

Turning up the volume

That will never be loud enough

To forget for one moment

The morning that I died.